20 YEAR REUNION...............

So saturday night was my 20 year reunion, I was not sure from the beginning if I would go. I finally decided with the help of some friends:-) that I would regret not going, so we went. First we dropped Abby off at my aunts in Costa Mesa then we headed over to Sharons for a before party. It was really nice Linda Dixon, Amber Polmenteer, Debbie Whitcher and of course Sharon, Garey and the kids were there. It was really nice to be back in that area with old friends, that made us feel so welcome!!! Thanks again guys.

Then we headed off to the reunion...........and can I just say WOW, people have changed so much it is hard to believe. Maybe because I don't feel I look much different then high school. I got to see some people I really wanted to see including Eric Somers, I miss him!!!

Dinner was great I had 2 plates (well I am eating for 3) LOL. Abe was even having fun, the funny thing is I think Garey and the drunks there made him laugh alot, which is always funny!! Not that Garey was drunk he was not but I meant that Garey and then the drunks made him laugh, you know what I mean, right?LOL


I think the funniest time was when Linda was singing " Like a Virgin" on the DJ's microphone and walkinig around the place talking to people on the microphone, then I turned around another time because I hear singing from the dance floor and what do you know Sharon had the microphone, WHAT A BLAST!!!! It was great to see everyone having so much fun. Then there was Debra Carey who was all over Jennifer and she was getting so upset then we hear this shuffle and turn around to Debra and Jennifer Savage on top of each other and falling to the floor where Jennifer smashed her head on the floor, and all they could do was laugh and lay there!!! Oh man you could not have written a better time esp for us to just watch, I sat there wondering what must Abe be thinking about this class????? THAT THEY KNOW HOW TO HAVE FUN!!!

IS IT ME?????????

Ok....so I have had some issues with my family as far as Abby goes. The problem is.......I don't let her out of my site, she has only been babysat about 10 times in her short 2 year old life. The times she has been babysat is for me to go to the dr, or when I had surgery. We don't ever want to go anywhere without her so we don't get sitters to go on dates.....I know that it is said "you two need date time" I do believe that BUT like we always say" we had 12 yrs alone". Now we just want to be with our child!


So the problem is my family wants to have Abby and I have a problem letting her go, so after many arguements I said I would allow her to spend the night with my mother and nephews (which Abby adores). Abe was not happy but said I won't fight you on this, so we got her ready and took her to my brothers to meet my mom. Oh course I have alot of rules, which my mother follows none!!!! I said don't let her play on the playground at McDonalds, well she did, and Abby did come out ok LOL.


I called alot which made my mom upset, but the bottom line is I trust my mom completely but she is my baby and I have to be aware of EVERYTHING........... I know I have control issues for sure!!!!!!!
Everyone knows this, but I feel like I have to take baby steps to begin to trust someone else with the most important thing in my life.

She had the best time ever and she cried when my mom and the boys left, so I feel good about that, BUT I just don't think this is something I can do all the time. Once in awhile!! Abe and I did have a great day, we went shopping and to dinner. But I was counting the minutes until Abby was home in my arms...............really am I the only person who feels this way??????? I am so torn. I want to do what is right for Abby and allow her to have relationships that she can count on and charish. I think I need some help though, and Abe feels the same as me so that does not help!!!!!

REUNION.......

Ok.........so I have my 20 yr reunion coming August 4th. I am extremely sad that it is the same night as Harvest, we were so looking forward to seeing one of our favorites POD!!!!!!!!! But when I thought about it, I can see them anytime BUT I will not get another chance for a 20 yr reunion. I am also sad that I am pregnant while going, I'm sure I will be the only 38 yr old there pregnant with twins LOL :-).
Do I have a lot of close friends going, NO! But do I have people I really liked and would have loved to keep in touch with, YES! I think what made me feel in the beginning like I did not want to go is, first my best friend is a year younger then me so she was not in my class. Second, I had a boyfriend all thru high school that was in my class so I spent every minute with him, and of course Eric Somers.........
who I had a very close friendship after high school. But it brings me to the thought of "well I never put myself out there enough to really make great friends, people in my grade who I could have in my life forever........". That makes me sad,
because most of my closest friends are from when I was young, Evie I have been friends with over 30 years, Wendy about 27 years, Jen about 25 years...... those are the most meaningful friendship that have been in my life for years. I do have newer friends that mean the world to me, Treena!! But my point being I wish I felt the overjoyed feeling of seeing these people I was so close to again, but really I am going with the thought of I really want to see these people I don't know so well and see if I connect with them. But to be totally honest the main reason I am going is because I think I portrayed a not so nice person, and there are some people I would like to know me NOW and not think that is who I really am. I ultimately do not want anyone to feel negative of me. So with that said I will be going, and I am very excited to go to Sharons before and get to know the girls again. I think we are all going to have a blast!!!!!!!

Abbys 2nd birthday party..

Ok, well I think I figured out how to get pictures in order. I will have to try it out next time LOL. This was Abbys 2nd birthday party, these are the roses her daddy got her for her special day!!

This is Abby and her Elmo cake. I know I make cakes yet I bought hers, but I was not up for standing for hours to make her one so I got this one and she loved it!!! Too bad she does not like cake,LOL. She did try to blow the candles out, it was very cute.

We had a Elmo pinata, Abby went first then the other kids. My nephew Michael finally broke it!!! The kids loved all the candy Abby and daddy stuffed in it.

So this is Abby opening her presents with her grandma, she received alot of Elmo gifts, 2 cars etc. She was getting tired of opening them she wanted to play with them,LOL.

This was such a great day, but boy was I glad it was over. I plan for months and spend so much it is silly, but as long as we all have fun, it is worth it. This is Abby on my moms lap opening present after present....... alot of Elmo stuff, which she loves!!! We all hung out in the backyard, Michael swam and the kids played on the playground. Over all it was a busy but fun day. Now we just have a couple birthday parties but other then that we can relax, until the baby shower :-)..............

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY ABIGAIL ELISE...

Wow, to think it was 2 years ago today that I finally gave birth after 4 days of labor... To also think we had tried for 11 years to have her. With everyday that goes by I love her more and more, if that is possible. She is such a great little girl which makes me sad to say because I always call her my baby :-( Now she is sooo

big and smart. For her birthday today we are going to go to Chuckie Cheese with her cake and have some fun, then saturday we will have a party with lots of swimming and fun!!!!! So to my baby girl Abigail HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL!!

Flowers for mommy.......

Abe and Abby went grocery shopping for me and came back with a very sweet surprise. Abby loves to sit in the store and smell every flower she can, so her and daddy bought me some and she did not want to give them up LOL.

Fun with grandma

So grandma came up to stay with us and Abby was so excited to have her toenails painted. She sat so still, it was the sweetest thing ever.