Summer fun

Well I have tried and failed at most of our family trips this summer, but I still try and get out there!! We met my brother and his boys at Scandia to do some miniture golfing and fun little rides........well what do you know I made it about 1/2 hr and had a passout spell, I had to lay in the wet grass in white shorts LOLOL, I can laugh about it now but it was far from funny then. I was fine after getting in the shade for awhile!!! Abe gets so upset because he does not understand why I do this to myself, WELL I don't do this to myself I try and give my family some fun, because they deserve it!!!! But I do understand his point, the same thing happened when we went to Sea World and Disneyland, I guess I am having problems with not doing what I want, when I want. Who knows when we will be able to go to these places again when the twins come???? Anyways we went ot my brothers after the park and had a fun swim day, Abby LOVES to hang out and play with her cousins!!!!

I did feel bad for my brother because while at the park he found out a good friend of his from work had died in a motorcycle accident that morning, so being the caretaker my brother is, he was on the phone with everyone and planning to go to the house and do whatever he could for the family. It really makes you think anytime we could lose someone we love and the thought is frightening!!!!! Casey said it should be a nice big Firefighter service, so thats nice for the family to have that support.

So here are some fun summer pictures!

The twins at 14 weeks............

Well I went for my prenatal appointment with my new Dr., I was very nervous because I normally will not see a man but since I need a specialist I had to...
I must say I was pleasantly surprised, he was extremely professional but very caring and was very knowledgeable. He asked and told me more then any Ob Dr. I had ever seen!! He does want to see me every three weeks :-( but I think it is for the best with my heart problem he says it is triggered with pregnancy, I did not know that!!!! We find out the sex Sept 4th, we are very excited, Abe is sitting on pins and needles because I won't let him do anything to their room till we know, he is soo cute he has been stopping by the store after work and getting newborn diapers, he says we need to start now :-)... Oh course there was one baby that was very active and kicking the other one over and over again, I said to the Dr. "is that baby kicking the other in the head"??? He laughed and said "NO that is their butt"
how funny it was to see. I still have not completely wrapped my head around this, I know it will be like it was with Abigail and as soon as we knew she was a girl it instantly hit me and I began my bonding!! I am as big as a house already which is fine I want to gain as much as I can but people think I am 6 months........ :-O LOL
I will let you know when we find out the sex...........until then please pray for us!!!

20 YEAR REUNION...............

So saturday night was my 20 year reunion, I was not sure from the beginning if I would go. I finally decided with the help of some friends:-) that I would regret not going, so we went. First we dropped Abby off at my aunts in Costa Mesa then we headed over to Sharons for a before party. It was really nice Linda Dixon, Amber Polmenteer, Debbie Whitcher and of course Sharon, Garey and the kids were there. It was really nice to be back in that area with old friends, that made us feel so welcome!!! Thanks again guys.

Then we headed off to the reunion...........and can I just say WOW, people have changed so much it is hard to believe. Maybe because I don't feel I look much different then high school. I got to see some people I really wanted to see including Eric Somers, I miss him!!!

Dinner was great I had 2 plates (well I am eating for 3) LOL. Abe was even having fun, the funny thing is I think Garey and the drunks there made him laugh alot, which is always funny!! Not that Garey was drunk he was not but I meant that Garey and then the drunks made him laugh, you know what I mean, right?LOL


I think the funniest time was when Linda was singing " Like a Virgin" on the DJ's microphone and walkinig around the place talking to people on the microphone, then I turned around another time because I hear singing from the dance floor and what do you know Sharon had the microphone, WHAT A BLAST!!!! It was great to see everyone having so much fun. Then there was Debra Carey who was all over Jennifer and she was getting so upset then we hear this shuffle and turn around to Debra and Jennifer Savage on top of each other and falling to the floor where Jennifer smashed her head on the floor, and all they could do was laugh and lay there!!! Oh man you could not have written a better time esp for us to just watch, I sat there wondering what must Abe be thinking about this class????? THAT THEY KNOW HOW TO HAVE FUN!!!

IS IT ME?????????

Ok....so I have had some issues with my family as far as Abby goes. The problem is.......I don't let her out of my site, she has only been babysat about 10 times in her short 2 year old life. The times she has been babysat is for me to go to the dr, or when I had surgery. We don't ever want to go anywhere without her so we don't get sitters to go on dates.....I know that it is said "you two need date time" I do believe that BUT like we always say" we had 12 yrs alone". Now we just want to be with our child!


So the problem is my family wants to have Abby and I have a problem letting her go, so after many arguements I said I would allow her to spend the night with my mother and nephews (which Abby adores). Abe was not happy but said I won't fight you on this, so we got her ready and took her to my brothers to meet my mom. Oh course I have alot of rules, which my mother follows none!!!! I said don't let her play on the playground at McDonalds, well she did, and Abby did come out ok LOL.


I called alot which made my mom upset, but the bottom line is I trust my mom completely but she is my baby and I have to be aware of EVERYTHING........... I know I have control issues for sure!!!!!!!
Everyone knows this, but I feel like I have to take baby steps to begin to trust someone else with the most important thing in my life.

She had the best time ever and she cried when my mom and the boys left, so I feel good about that, BUT I just don't think this is something I can do all the time. Once in awhile!! Abe and I did have a great day, we went shopping and to dinner. But I was counting the minutes until Abby was home in my arms...............really am I the only person who feels this way??????? I am so torn. I want to do what is right for Abby and allow her to have relationships that she can count on and charish. I think I need some help though, and Abe feels the same as me so that does not help!!!!!