Ok, I will come clean.....

Ok, I have been so out of it for so long it seems that I am driving myself nuts!!!!!! I am feeling like I have to have everything done NOW!!!!! I feel great and I am so thankful to not be pregnant anymore that I am running around like a chicken with their head cut off. I really need to stop and enjoy my life and my family more then worry about the house and things like that. I have not spent the time and energy into Abby the way I should and now I need to make up for it, BUT the problem is she is trying to get the attention anyway she can so I feel like I am constantly putting her in time out or on her bed, that I want to cry. I know this is alot for her with me always having a baby in my arms feeding etc...... but I still need her to have control and still feel loved. I am just feeling the pulling of what I should be focused on, I want the twins to have their special time of laying in my arms and having that bond that Abby got but I want to make sure she is getting the love and support she deserves!!! Oh geez I know it will all work out sometime, hopefully sooner then later.