WHAT A DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so the day started out fine. Get the kids ready for the twins first dr appt. I had everything ready, everyone in the kitchen to put in the car. Well I take Freddy out in the garage to the car and for the split second I put him in, Abby shuts and deadbolts the door!!! I start to lose my mind, keep in mind she has NEVER even touched the door locks or anything for me to worry about. I first kick in the cat door and I am on my back talking to her and explaining to unlock the door, as she looks at me like she has no idea what I am saying.

I first talk to her calm then I turn to anger because I can hear Maddy in there crying, I had given my mom my house key when she was watching Abby while I was in the hospital and forgot to get it back from her. Abe had his at work with him in Hollywood........... so needless to say I had a panic attack which did not help and I was freaking out, Abe told me to break one of the windows so I tryed and the windows would not break. I guess that is a good thing!!!!

I then just thought I would try a screwdriver and pry and break the wood around the deadbolt and it worked!!!!! She must have just been about to lock it half way, thank the Lord!!!!!! I now have one of my foam door stoppers to use for it from now on, but I will tell you I have never in my life been so scared and helpless!!!!! I felt like the worse mother ever the whole day!

Freddy and Maddy

HOW CUTE ARE THEY..........

Ok, I will come clean.....

Ok, I have been so out of it for so long it seems that I am driving myself nuts!!!!!! I am feeling like I have to have everything done NOW!!!!! I feel great and I am so thankful to not be pregnant anymore that I am running around like a chicken with their head cut off. I really need to stop and enjoy my life and my family more then worry about the house and things like that. I have not spent the time and energy into Abby the way I should and now I need to make up for it, BUT the problem is she is trying to get the attention anyway she can so I feel like I am constantly putting her in time out or on her bed, that I want to cry. I know this is alot for her with me always having a baby in my arms feeding etc...... but I still need her to have control and still feel loved. I am just feeling the pulling of what I should be focused on, I want the twins to have their special time of laying in my arms and having that bond that Abby got but I want to make sure she is getting the love and support she deserves!!! Oh geez I know it will all work out sometime, hopefully sooner then later.

The twins finally arrive...............

So here they are...........they were born 1/17/08 Freddy Paul was born at 6:43 pm weight was 7 lbs. 20 in. Madelyn Grace was born at 6:50pm weight was 5 lbs 13 ozs. 19 in. I had them naturally and everything went great.

Here they are their 1st day home, they love to be with each other, they sleep great!!! Freddy on the left Maddy on the right.

Here is the twins with big sister Abby in her Shrek chair.

Christmas eve

This is Christmas eve at my aunt's house, it was a full house. This is Abby always wanting to play with her cousins (who are all boys) toys.

Then she opened her toys from everyone and got her Rose Petal cottage and alot of other fun stuff. The necklace she is wear is a light up Cinderella, my brother always gets her the fun stuff.

Then she opened a makeup case, she is way to young for that so it has to go back!!!! But for a minute she thought she hit the lotto, LOL. All in

all it was very nice, esp since I have been in and

out of the hospital and they were wanting to keep

me for 2 more weeks. I was so sad thinking my

baby would not have her mommy home on Christmas, but I was lucky my regular dr was on dutie sunday afternoon and he said I had been in three days and I could go home. YAHHHH!!!!! So it was extra special to be able to be with everyone.

Our Christmas pictures

This is the picture we decided on for our Christmas card. But I just loved the other one because Abby just loves her daddy so much she can't take her eyes off him!!!

Pictures with Santa

Well this is what we woke up to sunday morning, snow on the ground it was 32. So we got ready to go get Abby's pictures done with Santa at South Coast. The next picture is of Abby's watching the Wiggles in the car with her headset, how cute is she!! The next picture is of her dressed at my aunts house and ready to go, she looked beautiful. Abe had to take her on the horses about 7 times while my family and I waited in line. Then finally the pictures with Santa, she did not smile once but hey she did not cry this time so that is better then last year!! All in all we had a great day and she loves Santa, just at a distance, LOL.