REUNION.......

Ok.........so I have my 20 yr reunion coming August 4th. I am extremely sad that it is the same night as Harvest, we were so looking forward to seeing one of our favorites POD!!!!!!!!! But when I thought about it, I can see them anytime BUT I will not get another chance for a 20 yr reunion. I am also sad that I am pregnant while going, I'm sure I will be the only 38 yr old there pregnant with twins LOL :-).
Do I have a lot of close friends going, NO! But do I have people I really liked and would have loved to keep in touch with, YES! I think what made me feel in the beginning like I did not want to go is, first my best friend is a year younger then me so she was not in my class. Second, I had a boyfriend all thru high school that was in my class so I spent every minute with him, and of course Eric Somers.........
who I had a very close friendship after high school. But it brings me to the thought of "well I never put myself out there enough to really make great friends, people in my grade who I could have in my life forever........". That makes me sad,
because most of my closest friends are from when I was young, Evie I have been friends with over 30 years, Wendy about 27 years, Jen about 25 years...... those are the most meaningful friendship that have been in my life for years. I do have newer friends that mean the world to me, Treena!! But my point being I wish I felt the overjoyed feeling of seeing these people I was so close to again, but really I am going with the thought of I really want to see these people I don't know so well and see if I connect with them. But to be totally honest the main reason I am going is because I think I portrayed a not so nice person, and there are some people I would like to know me NOW and not think that is who I really am. I ultimately do not want anyone to feel negative of me. So with that said I will be going, and I am very excited to go to Sharons before and get to know the girls again. I think we are all going to have a blast!!!!!!!